It's been a while since I last wrote something here. I have been quite busy with life and work. A lot has happened since but after re-reading my old entries, I realize that I write best for myself, not for the public. So, instead of telling everyone on Instagram, I published my thoughts here, in the corner of the world, waiting for someone who cares about me that much to venture to this side of my world.
There are still 3 more months left in 2023 but this year so far, has been a hell of a ride for me. I have recently come to a realization that I think, has been postponed for years due to severe self-doubt. I have finally embraced my identity as a writer. A professional one, not the one I pursue as a hobby. I know, I have earned money from writing for years but never have I ever considered myself one before this point in my life because simply, I don't think that I'm good enough. But now, as I have to write more than one piece of writing every day, about to become a person whose work will be foundation of other medium and how I feel so myself when I do it, it's about damn time to finally give this old self a title and acknowledge it for the purpose it was born to do, a writer, an occasional poet and will soon to be an award-winning screenwriter.
This is so self-absorbed but I always know that I would do big thing, move abroad and leave a legacy behind even when I was at my lowest. Maybe that's the thing that kept me going. Such a Leo thing to say and do but the belief I have in myself in the past years has exceeded all expectation I set out for me and everyone around me. The faith I have in me has compensated for all the self-doubt I once swam in. I have reached a stage that I can look back, smile and say to myself, "Damn, you've made this far, all on your own, girl." I did. And. I. Am. So. Damn. Proud.
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